I’m not a very open person; I like to be silly, and I like to give opinions, but the idea of really sharing the deeper stuff inside me, opening up to people and really letting them see who I am, scares me. The people who inspire me the most, and who I’m most drawn to, are those who live lives of open, honest integrity, who are vulnerable enough to let their flaws show, and who let you in on their struggles to overcome their failings. Over the past couple of years I’ve been trying to open up more, take off the ‘masks’ I wear, and live with more integrity, trying to be the same(ish!) person on the outside as on the inside, and in different situations. I have a very long way to go! This blog is a little part of that project. I’m still trying to figure out exactly how it’s going to take shape, but I want to share some of the stuff I’m made of, with the aim of hopefully becoming better at it!
Some of the themes I’ll write on are faith, politics, and poetry; these are parts of me that I sometimes feel are too personal to let show too much, but that to allow myself to be known, I need to let out. I don’t necessarily need to be known or require much of an audience, but I do need to become more ‘knowable’, especially by those I’m close to. I’m not sharing about my faith because I’m particularly holy, or to try to convert you, but because I simply want to tell my story and share my experiences, which you are free to take or leave. I’m not sharing my political ideas because I think they’ll save the world; I have more questions than answers, and there are many people out there who have much better-thought-through politics than me! But I would love it if I could inspire you to ask more questions. And I’m not sharing my poetry because I think it’s great and need you to like it; I know it is, at best, average! But poetry is somehow a very intimate thing. It seems to me possibly the ultimate way to share your soul, and because of that it scares me! But sometimes I do write words that express something I can’t put prose around, and I really want to overcome my fear of sharing them. Maybe, hopefully, I can inspire others to share the stuff they’re made of too.
My name is Helen (W!), Autumn is my favourite season, daisies are my favourite flower, both have been very significant to me for a long time, and there is a daisy flower that blooms in Autumn in lovely autumnal colours called the helenium 🙂 I am an environmental scientist, activist, imperfect follower of Jesus, wildlife lover, veggie recipe writer, and megafan of Jon Foreman 🙂